Why?

When horrible things happen to those closest to me, I find my self asking, "WHY?" I know there must be a reason ... but it doesn't make dealing with the situation any easier. The only thing that crosses my mind are thoughts such as "They deserve this ..." "Why did it happen to her, she is so worthy and prepared ..." "Why did you let it happen to ___ when they aren't prepared and in no want." "It just isn't fair ..." "Can't you see the pain, please relieve it?" "Why? Why? Why?"

Sometimes on this side of heaven, we will never know the answer to these questions ... but I believe God is an honest God and wants us to be honest with Him about our feelings ... I know we can't stay there ... we must move forward despite the pain ... although, it seems soooo extremely hard to do! I believe God is good and His will and plan are perfect .... but right now I don't understand His will ... Lord, please lift her burden and answer her prayers! She is such a faithful servant for you ... Lord I pray for a miracle!!